-The Unspoken Story Of The Lonely Bard-
I’m thankful for the time that you give me. I am grateful that you were speaking to me at all. Time is precious. I don’t wish to waste your time. So respectfully, all that I ask is that you don’t waste mine. These are words I don’t have to give you at all. You either have all of me or none of me, there is no in between. If you’re not for it, you’re free to go. You’re not bound to me in any way. You’re free to leave, you’re free to stay. I just tell it how it is and if you don’t like it - I’m not gonna change for you. I’m gonna be myself - always. You can call it selfish if you want, but I’m just not gonna hold you. You will hurt me if you leave, and it will make me happy if you choose to stay. I don’t wanna trap you in any way. If you ask me something, I will give an honest opinion. If you tell me I’m wrong - I’ll just explain why I’m right. Because I’ll always admit it when I am wrong. You can believe whatever you want to believe. You can do whatever you want to do. You can be whoever you want to be. I’m just an observer. Perhaps even a mirror. I reflect what is given to me. If I’m given respect, I will give it back. If you care for me, I’ll care for you. And if you ever choose to love me, I’m sure I’ll already love all of you. Because I love unconditionally. So if you give that to me, I’ll give it 10 times over. That’s what a woman does, she reflects everything that she is getting back. A woman is not the crazy one, it’s the environment she’s being given. A woman multiplies the love she is given….
Hatred too…
All the anger and rage held together by the patience and restraint she carried for someone over the time of knowing them. Choosing peace all those times because she loved them enough not to hurt them with her words. Choosing silence because she knows how powerful her words could be. That woman will always win the argument of “I love you more.”
But when she finally doesn’t feel safe and is tired of feeling like she will never be enough. She will defend herself with her life. Because that’s what she has to lose in the face of a man. She either does what he says or ends up dead if he really wanted to take those rights. Many men get away with it in today’s world. Women don’t usually trap people like that. Maybe women aren’t trapping men into marriage because of pregnancy, what if it was an accident? What if it happened unplanned? Maybe they ask for childcare after because now that have to carry around an accident when it was supposed to be a fun time. Everyone can make their assumptions and jump to any type of conclusions in that scenario. But no one truly knows what it’s like to be a woman everyday, like a woman does. Women don’t usually act crazy unless there is a real reason. But most women just don’t seem to know what it means to be in the sisterhood. To help each other instead of seeing everyone as competition or a paycheck. I surely don’t. I don’t see anyone in that way. I’m always calm and peaceful, I only usually get excited whenever somebody talks about my interests. I’m easy to read if I feel safe with you… but if I don’t feel safe…
mentally, emotionally, spiritually, or physically…
You’ll never see me again…
So be grateful when you have me, or I’ll be gone in a blink…
So if you’re wanting to get to know me, this is it…
I bring wisdom, even if you call it bullshit.
I share knowledge, even if you call it lies.
I come with peace, even if you call it war.
I’ll always be calm and mellow - wishing for your safety above my own.
I wish for you even if you aren’t in my life anymore, even if you did something unforgivable.
I wish for everyone’s happiness and health…
I’m just completely accepting of what life gives me…
Of who I meet and what comes with them…
I feel like it’s meant to happen…
The people coming on my path are near me for a reason, whether they teach me a lesson or I teach them one.
No matter how long I am at their stop, I will give my all, but I will still keep going.
I will walk on my path, my adventure of life, with or without you.
I’ll be happy if you choose the follow me, to get front row seats of my story.
I would truly be grateful…
But I will keep walking, keep choosing for myself, whether you like it or not.
Because that’s my choice…
That’s who I want to be, someone unstoppable.
Someone who can love deeply and can accept when people have to leave…
Who will still continue to love whoever comes on her path.
But just know that she won’t stay for long…
If I want to go, I will. If I want to stay, I will.
Because that is my will…
My belief in this life, is that I have a right to that choice…
No matter what anyone else says or does to me…
I’ll always choose to be kind, even if you choose to make me the villain in your story.
But make sure not to leave out the reason why I became a villain…
It’s the most important detail…
For there would have been no reason for me to be a villain in your story, if you had given me love and kindness instead.