overwhelmed and scared
I'm so scared. I'm at twelve weeks and had monitored my blood sugar the last two months, while I was still on metformin. Even with metformin my fasting numbers were increased 1/3 of the time.
At 85 I would feel so hungry already.
Now I have stopped the metformin and I can feel the bloodsugar being off. I am so thirsty, it feels so bad. I went for a walk and drank apple vinegar, but I still feel so thirsty.
I have no idea how I am ever meant to do this. Eating was the only thing that helped with the constant nausea and I am so worried that I will never stop feeling shitty or sick one way or another. Its simply too much.
I am having my glucose test next week and so worried of how sick I am going to feel.
I sometimes doubt if I want to continue this pregancy. I need a little bit of hope that insulin will help.
And I can not do calorie counting. I have adhd and any kind of structure is so hard to maintain. I am not strong enough and my body seems to hate me and it doesn't feel like this body was meant to get pregnant.