So i adopted my pup end of February she is so smart and great and already trained her to do so many commands and is really loving. It’s been so hard raising her alone since i cant do anything at times since she just barks in her crate and i always have to bathe her since she goes potty in there after taking her on long walks and making sure she potty’s outside before i do anything. I’m usually home most times since I’m a freelancer and I’m taking care of her alone. My landlord gave me 2 noise complaints on not wanting her here.
I left her out her crate when i do go out no longer then 45min to an Hour and let her free roam around the house and she is better now for the most part but still barks. I also been going through things mentally since had lost my older brother and it hits me in waves and at times i feel like i can’t provide for myself as far as pushing through in life. There’s good day and bad days for me and i did not want to bring that energy to my pup. I feel like there is so much growth i still have to do and go through and thought having a companion like her would help but at times it takes a toll.
So i had reached out to the rescue i got her from and they found her a foster but still did not sign the contract to hand her over. They have someone to foster her and get her Sunday but i am just having second thoughts because of the bond i grew with her is insane. It would truly put me in a bad place mentally but also other part of me is saying i also have to look out for myself and make sure she haves the best life.
I’m just stuck and not sure what to do i came here to vent.