Hate my Internship
I’m a junior in college studying civil engineering and 1 other field as a double major. I got my first civil internship (I was SO excited) at a firm after meeting at a career fair. Long story short, a few days in and I already dread going. After work I sob. I know I’m probably being dramatic, and a lot is new so it’s a bit of a “shock” for my system. But I practically talk to nobody the whole day. Do one or two tasks for the whole day. Never leave my desk or take a lunch. Is this what working life is like? Is it more the degree, or the firm? Should I leave engineering as a whole if all of it is desk jobs?
I just feel pathetic as well as helpless. I worked so hard to figure out what I wanted and did it well (involvement, networking, grades, balancing work with school as I support myself through college) and now I feel turned upside down because I hate what I worked so hard for. I finally want to add that I am still immensely grateful for any sort of job and am not bitter in that regard. It is a blessing to be able to be healthy and have the opportunity to work especially in this economy.
Any advice is appreciated.