looking for advice, before i end up killing myself (17F)
so about 3 weeks ago, on a Tuesday, i started to get heartburn/acid reflux. i know that the cause had to be one of these: laying down too soon (i usually lay down 30 minutes after a meal regardless of how big it was, normally it was fine but i guess that was the breaking point.) or, eating too fast, which makes me cough shortly after. the food i had was KFC which made me a little nauseous because it's gross, yet before i started eating, it sounded fine.
during those weeks, ive had these symptoms:
- heartburn
- manually needing to breath (this was when i had to elevate myself using pillows. this doesn't happen anymore, and i have a wedge pillow now, but i believe it could if i laid down with heartburn active)
now, i literally have not seen a doctor yet because life neglects me i guess, ive only been to a urgent care place and they basically gave me nothing to do.
that was a while ago...i am still in care of my mom so i cant do anything myself, especially since im broke and severely depressed to the point i have no motivation to work or help myself through this. i haven't been able to adjust to a better schedule...
i have lost many hours of sleep due to this, and made the sleep deprivation i already had even worse than before. nobody in my family knows that im depressed, but i dont like the thought of saying anything. so stress is probably making it worse.
right now, i am currently refusing any food/water because of this. im not like any other person, i have different feelings, and honestly it feels impossible to calm me down...
i don't want to have a appointment weeks from now. i want to see someone who will actually give me medicine or something to help me get rid of this. TOMORROW. because then i just have no point in trying to survive.