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So I'm not sure where to add this but a year ago I had 2 ladies from my old church come to home under the pretense of fellowship and worship but actually took almost 5 grand of kpop merchandise from my home. Telling me it would be returned when I returned from 🇰🇷
I was severely distressed and devastated and I did tell them several times I did not want to do this. But they kept telling me the feelings I was experiencing was demonic possession. I was told that they would be taking all of my things to their home in Lewisville TX ( i live in Haltom City). When they left I was initially in shock and didn't know what to do. I looked around my empty room which didn't even feel like mine and noticed a slip of notebook paper missing from a shelf. That paper was Hindu prayer from grandmother who passed away in 2014. It was one of the last things given to me by her before she left. I quickly called the ladies and asked about it. They said they did take it because they weren't sure what it was but rather than asking me they assumed that some kpop idol had written a satanic chant and given it to me. I asked them to please return it but they said they had driven to far. I asked if I could come get it from them during the week. They agreed. This all happened on a friday. I woke up the next day in tears. My room was not the same. I called and asked if I could get my grandmother's prayer on Sunday they both told me it would be better to come according go our original agreement as they both would not be attending church that Sunday. I believe it was a Monday or Tuesday they allowed me to come over but when I arrived I found that they had moved my items an hour and a half away to the colony without telling me prior. I just wanted my things back at this point especially my grandmother's prayer. Yes it's a Hindu prayer and I am Christian ✝️ but it was the last and only thing I have left of her. That week Wednesday I went with to the colony to the home my items were kept at and I had asked if I could get the note back. I was told I could after after worship before we rode home all together. I said okay. And after worship one of the ladies was talking about leaving quickly because she had to get home to her puppies. I asked about the note again and this time I was told by the lady with the puppies " it's just a piece of paper isn't it? It's no big deal" that broke my heart and I got in her face because they had already gaslight me by claiming I was demonically possessed. I said it wasn't just a slip of paper and she got right back in my face and said " yell at me again and see what I do to you"
I got up and went to the other lady. Now mind you they had both said they needed to get home early but were standing around just talking for quiet awhile. When I approached the other lady I said I want my grandmother's note please she said give her a moment she wanted to finish talking. I said no now please with force. Her eyes grew wide and she said okay puppy lady and her dragged me into the garage and puppy lady was saying I was acting like a child that I was being ridiculous over a piece of paper. Complaining about being there too long and having to get back to her puppies. I was wasting their time. She said my grandmother may not even be in heaven considering she died a Hindu. So what did a stupid piece of paper even matter. I was verbally abused in that garage by both of them. And when they finally found it and we all exited the garage I was visibly upset but I wasn't allowed to tell anyone what had just happened. I was stared down by both these women with menacing eyes that screamed if I opened my mouth something bad would happen. Mind you again they both claimed to want to leave 😒 but stayed longer to chat. Someone offered to take me back to my car but the ladies stepped in a disagreed saying they would take me back. The only other time I felt this scared and uncomfortable was when I was being physically and verbally abused by my father when I was younger. Not gonna lie this experience was 100 times worse. I did end up talking to their small group leader about it and also another mutual friend. But what ended up happening was i was told to go to Korea. When I came back my items would be returned. They were not. I called one of the ladies and was informed they had washed their hands of the whole incident they did not want to be involved any longer. That they would not be returning my things that I would have to go get them from the colony myself. I called their small group leader. Who told me she would go get my things. Upon arrival a majority of items were damaged beyond repair or replacement. Iwas getting no reimbursement. No apologies. I stopped going to church out of fear of running into them. Until a few people asked about my whereabouts. I started coming back slowly but was terrified.....I didn't trust anyone there. Little by little I was coaxed into talking to the pastor. Who said it would be taken care of.
Well I started to be shunned or at least I felt like I was. People stopped calling me to things inviting me out....it was a little like this prior to the whole thing happening but it seemed like it got way worse. I definitely felt trapped and suffocated. But I showed up. My faith didn't waver. But I wasn't understanding what was happening. New people came in I didn't know anybody and when I did talk to people they would get pulled away from talking to me by the friends of the ladies who did this to me. I wasn't welcome at this church anymore and it had nothing to do with the pastor , his wife or some others that attended there. And me who is struggling so much to keep my faith after all this ( I haven't let go and I dont plan to ) just needed out. I ended up leaving the church but I feel guilty and completely wrecked . The depression and anxiety have done a very large negative number on my psyche and i still have not gotten an apology or accountability.
Does anyone have any advice on what i can do to remotely feel even a little like myself again? I have tried just about everything....and I still feel like im pulling a mask over my face every single day.....