u/Emergency_Silver_413

If you think about it, most charts are constricted by birth pattern.

Low birth:

1.Lack of emotional safety > moon in other signs except taraus/cancer.

2. Confidence takes time due to lack of power > Sun isn't in aries/leo.

3. Needs to be wise through experience, and learn everything by oneself > Jupiter isn't in sag/pis/cancer

4. Lack of luxury/resource > Venus doesn't get own sign.

With this even 2nd, 4th, are afflicted or are weak. 9th takes time to open up.

Only exception or supporting might be Mars and nodes which doesn't completely depend on birth status but native. Thats why people say grit is main factor for succes.

Considering this, how can average-low birth do anything is their planet strength is only 50%. Exaltation, multiple moolatrikona are fairy tale. Rule of 5 exaltation for common to be king exist, while royal need 3. How can common even have 5 exaltations when those planets also shows birth pattern which aren't possible in common house hold.

So, what leads low birth to finally achieve something, actually big/royal level? Just multiple rajyogas stacking up? Even that gets constricted by Desh Kala Patra rule.

Its been about a year since I started it. In short time, after preparing body for it, I went full deep into it - exposing to almost all beej, various mantras, and worshiping various deities - going extra on special events/dates etc. May be as a spillover effect, my own family did lineage diety worship after decades [Living in abroad].

I mainly do Batuk bhairav 22 syllable mantra as core(mental worship only). To balance it, I also do durga worship. If I have extra time, I may do other things too. But as some 'scholars' say, you need to worship your Istha Devta; then for 'X' thing do 'Y' worship/action, for 'P' do 'Q'.

But doing these everyday in busy schedule when things are falling apart is ... . I only have time for Sadhana after 10/11 PM while having to wake up at 6/7 AM. So, schedule also gets crunched, can't even sleep properly.

I am wondering why even do it, why gods who already are great want to listen their boasting from other insignifiant projections. Like If everything is decided as astrology says like 'Laplace-Demon'(everything is predetermined, and freewill doesn't exist), why or what even is Sadhana. A way to connect with something, you never seen or known; and expect them to notice you among a tiny speck of world.

At one point, I even left it for few days but the exposure to vibration was too high that body couldn't remain without. Its been like 100 days since, and I completed tonight Sadhana part.

I don't even know what to do. Every conversation, I get handed down a diety to worship for improvement. I don't want to hear unconditional devotion stuff, but understand the logic. I even forgot what my query was.

In cases when my mental worship is perfectly occuring, I get circular vibration moving forward which ususally converge to heart or brain.

Is it a positive thing? Should such experience be allowded to take place without supervision of an experienced, or allow more time to body and mind for this experience.

Also, When ever I am affriming such experiences occur too (Eg, I can do this, I am capable, I will be there).

Is this what knowlege shakti means? The one between Desire and Action.

Unrelated query for confirmation:

Some say, People desire and Act, but their doubt or uncertainty while doing such weakens their manifestation of result. The link between Desire Energy and Action Energy, Knowledge Energy is missing due to which people might miss opportunities. Is this true?

What calculation do you use while considering Rahu-Ketu Position? Which works better?

Also, As true node have concept of Direct Motion and Stationary motion which is widely used in transit; Do you consider their effect/influence in birthchart too?

Please share your Knowledge and Experience