u/Emergency_One_2562

Honestly? I feel kind of lost right now.

Not in a dramatic way — just in that quiet, heavy way where you're putting in the work every single day and still wondering if you're even on the right path.

I'm teaching myself how to trade ES futures. No mentor. No one in my corner walking me through it. Just me, my charts, and everything I've been able to piece together on my own — cumulative delta, volume analysis, the tape, order flow, footprint charts. My reads aren't bad. I can see things. I know things are clicking.

But I still feel alone in it.

The people closest to me don't know what any of this means. And I don't blame them — it's a different world. But there's something isolating about being passionate about something and looking around and just… not seeing anyone who gets it.

I'm not trying to get rich overnight. My goal isn't millions. My goal is simple — I want this to be my full-time job. I want to trade my way out of the 9-to-5. That's it. That's the whole dream right now.

And I'm out here building toward it quietly, by myself, one session at a time.

If you're someone who knows order flow — Jigsaw, DOM, delta, volume profile, the tape — or even if you're just figuring it out like me, I want to know you exist. I want people around me who have the same hunger, the same questions, the same drive to actually make this work.

Because I think we push each other further than we'd ever get alone.

So if you're in the same boat — say something. Let's figure it out together.

You're not alone. And neither am I.

Woke up early, got to the desk before the open. Pre-market ES was giving a clean setup. Shorted into resistance, position immediately went in my favor. +$112 unrealized. Peak profit sitting right there.

Did I take it? No.

Watched it grind back. +$112 → +$25 → flat → loss.

By the time I exited I had flipped from up $200 on the day to down $200. A $400 swing in under 2 hours.

The crazy part? The analysis was right. The entry was valid. The delta was showing warning signs the whole time and I still held, waiting for a bigger move that never came.

Then came the dangerous part — I felt the revenge trading pull kick in immediately. Market started dropping hard and my brain went "this is your chance to get it back."

I didn't take the bait.

Instead I'm sitting here writing this.

What I learned today:

A winner you don't take isn't a trade you managed. It's a trade that managed you.

Define your target BEFORE you enter. Not after price starts moving.

The market doesn't owe you your money back.

Sometimes the most profitable thing you do all day is close the screen.

Back tomorrow. Better.

"Does anyone actually get this?"

Had a +$200 winner in my hands this morning and watched it turn into a -$200 loss. Here's exactly what happened (and what I learned)