u/EmergencyStrategy261

Hello, you may have read this title and think me scum of the earth and I completely understand. The context of the story is that I recently just got out of the military and have been transitioning into civilian life and it’s been a very rough time for me . Ive been dealing with lots of stress and depression for the past month 1/2 I’ve been back in my home country and i felt I needed a companion to help reel me in. Almost a month of me being back, a family member offered me a cat and I was ecstatic as I’ve never owned a pet before and never had a cat friend of my own. Things were going great, even perfect, until today. My cat is literally awesome and really the fault was of my own unreasonable-ness. So basically when I move around my room not even paying attention to her and keeping my space, she’ll bolt in an avoiding direction even though I’m not focused/extremely close to her. Not that big of a deal right? I know. About an hour ago she had done it to me twice while I was cleaning my room and I was getting frustrated for literally no reason. Eventually I finished cleaning my room and was thinking about life and started overthinking myself into a stress mind hell when she had did it again as I was getting ready to settle down. This time though, I unfortunately had chased her. I want to make this clear, I do NOT condone hitting/abusing animals and I have never done so or will. As she bolted, I decided to chase/run after her around the house at full speed which I knew would scare her because she had ran outside of my room (her safezone). I chased her around my home until the loop was pretty much back into my room because thats where her safezone is. I immediately felt horrible for my actions. I didn’t mean to take my stress out on her because she honestly is perfect to me. If anybody has words of advice on how to gain her trust back I would really appreciate it. I will never scare her intentionally again