Adulting + Work From Home + Peer Pressure + Solo Living
I am a 26-year old guy and still living with my family. I work from home, making about 50k gross, and have my own room.
Lately, Ive been overthinking a lot and is really struggling about peer pressure. Palagi ko iniisip na Im already behind my peers as most of them are already working their future – most of them are already in their 4th year as Med/Law student. While ako, stagnant. But a friend of mine told me na Im not behind, since Im already earning money and working. Sabi niya some of my batchmates in school may be looking up to me because Im already earning money and working.
Really, nakadepende talaga how we framed our mindset.
Gusto ko mag move out since I really want to be independent from my family. In fact, even though Im earning now, Im not contributing sa expenses sa bahay. Technically savings mostly nalalagay since di naman ako magastos.
Plano ko ngayon mag move out and magrent ng condo where I can live alone far from family. But honestly, im scared, but I don’t know how to brave it. One of my worries kay if I move out, less savings na since Ill be the one to shoulder everything from food to rent to utilities. Pero wala naman akong goal now, like walang concrete goal ano ung gusto ko bilhin for my savings. Savings lang kumbaga- walang pinaglalaanan.
Now, Im also thinking to pursue law school while I’ll solo living. Pero Im honestly unsure why Law, maybe because I just want to feel good na Im also moving forward same sa mga batch mates ko. Pero I don’t really know if I really want to pursue law. Halfhearted ako sa law.
Hirap, sht. Andaming clashing conflicts and hindi ko alam how to manage them.
In fact in the past few months, lingering na ung thoughts na im ready to die anytime soon, pero hindi intentional death ha, but rather Im not afraid of death anymore. Maybe because wala naman akong maiiwan, maybe parents and family, but may mga ibang kapatid naman ako so my parents can still be happy.
Wala rin kasi ako planong mag-asawa, in fact, i never had a lover before. Maybe Im feeling incapable of love. So it’s not really a waste if I die, lol.
Feel ko talaga I need to have a goal, para makamove forward ako.
Can you please share me something related about yourself if ever you experienced one of my mentioned conflicts above. And how did you fight it? Are you happy ba?