u/ElectronicStorage872

I'm 19, currently close to finishing my 1st year of medicine out of 6 in the program and I'm almost fully sure I couldn't do this job in the long run. I was able to see the work in the ER and some different hospital sectors, and all of it just terrifies me and makes me sick. The problem is all my life I've been told to follow my parent's steps and become a doctor, I guess it got ingraved in my head even though I always said i wouldn't want to. In highschool my parents chose my lead subjects for me (biology, chemistry and maths) and they also strongly encouraged me to apply to medschool. I tried to like it and find something that would make me enjoy it but it just is so exhausting I can't deal with it. I've always been super keen on music and dancing but I feel like I can't be honest with my parents about it since the jump from a career in medicine to entertainment and creatives is just too big and even though I know they would not hold me back from pursuing it, they'd be highly disappointed and definitely not supportive. It will also probably ruin our relationship a lot. So my question is should I just deal with the disappointment and try to work in something I'll enjoy or try to push through to keep the relationship with my parents stable?