Got 95%ile in mains ,but messed up boards. PLS HELP
So basically i got 95 percentile in mains ...but boards itna fk up krdiya ki chem mein bss pass hojau toh bdi baat hogi ( copy toh bhar ke aaya hun 6--70 percent ) ....ik its not good at all...but till august 2025 i used to score 220/300 in jee mains test of my coaching (its a popular coaching) but fir i got hospitalized for like 1 month .....so pura august i was in the hospital and saari pdhai bekaar hogyi...fir na hi test mein marks aate na hi que solve hote...confidence got lowest ..... ab my 11th was very strong and 12th start was strong too.....but august ke baad jse hi test mein marks bohot kam aane lgge meri expectation ki hisaab s e....i lost confidence and stopped studyng....and meri ussi time pr family mein bhi bohot disturbance hone lgga like ekdum ghar mein shor hota tha bohot...coz of all this ...mne pdhna hi chodh diya and now whole october , november ,december,january ...i did not even opened a single book for there 4 months i swear to god......and but mains se ek din pehle i saw the formulas and bss kuch chapter ke formula dekhe woh bhi 11th ke ...and i scored 95 percentile .....kyuki 11t kaafi strong thi...i used to study a lot till 2025 august .....like i used to every module ,dpp and some books too....and was getting very good marks in tests too....but ab jse hi mains diya...i became happy...becoz i expected to score in mains hardly 20 number...coz i didnt study for past 3-4 months...not even opened a single book....ab boards ka mne socha end mein hojaega (biggest regret) and pure 20 din enjoy kiya....and fir phy ke board ke ek din pehle book uthayi ....and as i said my 11th was strong not 12th....12th was hella weak mera 30 percent syllabus toh 12th pcm ka finish bhi nhi hua tha...coz i stopped going to coaching after october......(health issues and low confidence) ab physics mein bss 2-3 chapter thode se aate the ..aur sb toh ekdum 0 ...jse taise krke mai phy ka 60 marks ka attempt krraya jisme 30 marks ka sahi hojaega ...i hope so ....ab chem ke paper mein bhi nhi padha ...pta nhi kya hogya tha mujhe...i rlly messed up...im so sorry ..and i regret it now....chem mein toh 1 din pehle thoda bohot pdha..and the paper was tough of our region..and hardly 40 marks ka attempt krra usme se ab bss pass hojau ....im rlly scared ki pass hounga ya nhi...i hope so hojau ...kyuki likhkr aagya tha ...copy bharkr aaya tha okayish....chem ka syllabus sirf 1-2 chapter hi krke gya tha thik se.......ab maths ka toh thik gya ....ab bass kya krru smjh nhi aara..advance ki prep toh krri nhi....ab im taking drop ...kyuki i am determined and i knowi can do this.....i used to be very good in studies till 2025 august..like top 10 in 250 student coaching......bss ab board mein pass hojau fir improvement dedunga agli saal 75+ nhi aaye toh...the only thing i want now is me passing in all 5 subjects...bss chem ka darr hai....and ghar se bhi pressure hai..becoz my father died in 2021 ...he had police job...and now relatives were saying ki jo mujhe mere papa ki job milrhi hai iss saal...they were saying me to take it...and dont do college and jee....but i refused them and did jee...and mains mein 95 aagye toh sbne bola thik hai advance dedo..nhi hua toh drop lelena...papa ki govt job rehne do mt krro...my mom supported me...but ab agar boards mein compartement aagyi toh mummy ko kya bolunga....and improvement toh chlo boldunga ....pr fir bhi kya krru ab smjh nhi aara...and now FR I HAVE LEARNT FROM MY MISTAKES..AND IM READY TO STUDY CONSISTENTLY AND ALREADY STARTED STUDYING AND IM DOING FINE..BS YE BOARDS KE RESULT KI TENSION HAI ...MUMMY KO KYA BOLUNGA...AUR YE RELATIVES....AB BSS PASS HOJAU....AND DO U GUYS THINK MERA DROP KA DECISION SAHI HAI...LIKE TO BE HONEST I WANNA DO THIS..GIVE MYSELF A FAIR TRY...THINGS MESSED UP BECOZ OF MY HEALTH...AND THEN LOW CONFIDENCE...BUT NOW I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN....PLS PLS HELP ME AND GIVE SUGGESTION..AND IF U HAVE REAL IT TILL NOW....THANKUUU I LOVE U .