u/Electrical_Two_1964

My dad killed himself two years ago so I don’t have anyone to walk me down the aisle,i have 7 friends total and two of them live half way across the country from me and two of them live in different countries, I don’t talk to over half of my family, and I think a big wedding will look really depressing because he is the absolute life of the party and has so many family members. He has his heart absolutely set on it but I’m worried his people will think I am pathetic. I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love him and I feel like such an asshole because I know he loves me and he wants everyone he loves there and I want so badly to be with him for the rest of my life but I am scared