I have a weird/frustrating situation going on.
I am mid F20s and I am insanely horny… and I’m embarrassed even typing this.
Some context….
I grew up in a super religious household. Suppressed my sexuality for a long time. Then have only had one abusive relationship from 18-20, and a few sexual encounters with situationships that went nowhere. A bit of past of sexual trauma as well…
I have not really developed sexually I feel. Like I am uncomfortable talking about it, and most of my encounters have been pretty disconnected and all about the man. I also like need to move slowly in a relationship to build that comfortability and trust I think… but I CANT wait when I’m this horny.
The past month it’s just been getting more intense. I can’t focus at work, I am sleeping late, and I have such a strong urge to talk to men and find someone and hook up, however I know that since hookups usually suck it won’t help. I need to build something with someone first. UGH. But also I have some work in therapy to do that I think before I get in a steady relationship… none of my relationship attempts have worked out due to my anxiety… I’m not the chillest person to be around. I’m sooo sexually frustrated and it is intense all day long.
Also, trying to masturbate or take care of it myself only makes it worse it seems… even though I “finish”.
I’m not sure if my hormones are just going insane or this is just normal for 26F. I’m worried about making impulsive decisions. I am good looking I think, but super shy and just struggle with relationships a lot.
TLDR: mid 20s and sexually frustrated af.