I truly believe the root of all my physical and mental problems to be living like a vampire. No medicine works for me anymore. The only thing making me asleep is sunlight at dawn. I hate this life. I'm so behind, drained, lonely and depressed.
Not actively suicidal for the past weeks, just wish I were taken away by an accident, murder or disease.
My most recent ex fucked me up during and after the relationship, finds ways to message me through fakes, and the last and only situationship I had almost a year after the BU was super toxic as well. Damn, my head is hell.
I just listed what I know I will need and will soon start packing. My whole life is a mess right now. Maybe the second time around it will actually make a difference for the better.