Well I'm crying rn 18F
Pata hai aaj kya hua
Rorhi hu likh rahi hu life se paresan hu bahut me
Toh earlier mene last year 12th kari fir drop le liya
Jo mann se ni liya force m liya
Mere dad ne muje 11th m janbuch pcm dilwai
And me mana b ni kr payi
Toh well meri back ek bar lagi b thi 11th me maths me
Bahut criticize kia gaya
Well 12th aches hogyi uske piche meri har raat ka na sona and messed insomnia
And depression kitna kuch tha
All j wanted is to escape from home
Toxic environment bahut jyda sab kuch
And it starts from
Mene jee dia ni hua but fir aur exam diye
Vitee and later srmjee hogya dono
They denied noo ni jana h ye wo ni h paise ni h
Deep down i knew hai but bhej ni rhe
Fir me itni depressed thi ki jo exam dikhta de deti thi
Mene yaha tak clat dedia
Fir ek saal to ghr s nikli nhi
Well they don't lemme go outside alone
Ab is saal mene bahut pareshani jheli toxic ghar me reh
Gaali galoz dhamki sab suni
But me dekti rahi sab
To they said itni afford ni kr skte balki they can ik
But theek h mene
Low tier sahi clg lene ka socha bahar sehar s
Taki bach sku inse me
Anxiety attacks se bach jau
And then me. Sab low fees dekh pvt dekhi
And mere ghr m grand father h to wo thoda maan jaye to dikkt kam hoti
So aaj mere papa s bola unhone
Aur m. B bethi thi
My father said jo krna h sehar m kregi bhale saal ke 5-6 lakh lage
And i asked freedom pe haq ni h mera
He said waqt ayega tb krna
And then
He said ai kro wo kro engineering
But sehar me apne bas aur kahi ni aur sehar kesa praise kr rhe hai ki prayagraj bahut achi jagah h ye wo log dur s ate
Aur jis clg ki bat krhi udr s ye wo log example dene lage wo log
Placement ni paye and
I said
Clg koi b hi yr
Jo majak m lega
Padhega ni try ni krega
To kese kuch hoga
Kuch chije khud pe b depend krti haiii
He literally started shouting at me
Ki jo krna ai kro
Menne kaha me apni marji s pdhna chahti
I will do business analytics bba
And ho jayega kuch to
He said isme kuch ni rakha sadak p ayegi
Then wo nikal gaye
And dadu said - ye akhri bar h na tum jo bolri paisa lagane? Ya bahar bhejne?
I said plsss krwado m ni reh paugi yaha i will die muje pdhne do jane do
Unhone shart rakhi hai
3 saal bad naukri ni lagi teri
Toh teri sidha shadi krwayeege if u
Agreee then only will send
And if lag gyi to 2-3 sal wait krlege
But bechlor bad ek paisa ni lagayege
Aur shadi to jrur kr dege
Shart manjoor kro ye bat
Tab hi bat hogi ab jane ki
Yr us moment kuch smjh ni aya
Mene agree kiya bs nikalna h muje
Yr