I cheated on my math exam
I cheated on my final math exam. I had been worrying about it for days. It was worth 30% of my grade. I am trying to get into a medical program for a better future and pay for my family and needed to pass this math class. I already got the letter that I was accepted into the program partially. If I failed math, I would be out. I had so much stress on me to pass this. I was losing sleep.
I knew it was wrong. I believe God put it on me to test me or convict me and I failed. Because I gave in and cheated.
My exam in math was proctored and we was not allowed to use any notes. Only scratch paper and pencil and our calculator. But I used my notes so that I could remember how to work out an equation with the question from the exam. I didn’t cheat by using my phone or by having someone tell me the answers but I still cheated because I used notes when I was not allowed to.
I passed with a 60/100 on the exam which put my final math grade at a 72%.
I am absolutely ate up with guilt. I am scared that bad karma will happen to my family. I feel worse than if I failed. I feel like God is mad at me or at least shaking his head in disappointment because I knew better, but went with the flesh anyway. I know this will stick with me on judgment day.
I had been struggling lately feeling as if I have drifted from God and my prayers have felt weak. I’ve not felt close. This certainly did not help with that. I just feel so rotten. I prayed for forgiveness, I prayed over how sorry I was. I prayed that I knew I was in the wrong and went with the flesh.
I really just needed to get this out.