u/Electra_Alexis

I guess this will be a spark notes version of what’s going on.. I’m F(26) divorced- I was used as en emotional punching bag for a few years..I left after he chose alcohol over me in an ultimatum..he in responded created the scenario and premeditated an ********* attempt to which his family blamed me and his dad threatened to kill me even tho that same father told him to finish the job on his first attempt. Also to mention I completely lost myself, everything was my fault, i wanted to not be here anymore. This situation have completely changed me. I now have ptsd emotionally, mentally talking myself out of validation that I matter, I also developed hdhd and I’m not coming well with that at all. I was a type A Virgo…and now I just don’t care nothing is getting better and I’m so tired? I don’t believe in therapy but I’m trying this which might be like that but free. I just hate talking about my feelings because what is it really changing? Why does everyday just get ripped away to the darkness…I just don’t want to continue but not continuing isn’t an option.. everything just kept crumbling under my hands..I just don’t know what to do or tell myself anymore ?