I am doubting myself and manifestation now... I really need advice
I’m applying for a PhD programme, and honestly, I feel completely lost right now.
Last year, I received an offer from my dream university, but because of financial reasons, I had to postpone my studies and reapply this year. I was fortunate enough to receive another offer (from the same uni) for the 2026 intake last December, and since then, I’ve been working on scholarship applications.
I genuinely tried my best. I revised every document over and over, made sure everything was as strong as possible, and put so much time and energy into the applications. On top of that, I got deeply into manifestation: listening to subliminals, visualising myself living my dream life, making a 'universe box' with my wishes written inside and leaving it to the universe, trying to ignore the 3D reality and stay positive no matter what.
But just now, I received unsuccessful outcomes for my two applications. Now I honestly don’t know what to do. Part of me is thinking about cancelling my offer altogether. It feels like I’m trapped in a loop where everything is just repeating itself again and again, and I’m starting to doubt both myself and manifestation completely.
Has anyone else gone through something similar? How did you cope with it? I really need someone to talk to or hear some suggestions.