u/Either-Art6049

Personally I dislike AI so much.

Is someone writing my life for me

Is it even me living my life

I’m just a soul in body trying to survive

My thoughts aren’t my own

I think and think about thoughts that don’t concern me

If I fail will they judge me

If I win will they envy me

If I die will they miss me

I rot my brain with thoughts of failure

When will I get rid of this feeling

The undeniable fate of pain and suffering

Once I’m in my grave I will feel like I belong

When I’m not breathing nor thinking I’ll feel complete

My worries and pain, floating into the universe where they crumble and disappear

No mistakes or pain tormenting me

Your curly hair is like vines tangled together

Vines tangled together like our love for each other

I feel you everywhere I go even though I know you aren’t there

I feel the warmness of our love everywhere I go as I stare into the sun

Just to feel what I felt when I saw your warm bright smile for the first time

I look into the warm beaming sun hoping to see a image of you

Our love faded like the sunset slowly disappearing till I couldn’t feel it no longer

Your love pulling away felt as if the sun was burning my skin

The burning pain I felt in my chest as I saw you together felt like the sun burning my skin as I melted into a puddle of sorrow

I won’t burn for no longer but I will now be the sun you failed to be

I quit smoking recently as I’m only a teenager and I want better for myself. It’s maybe one of the things I have done to better my life. I would always put it off and tell myself it’s okay everyone else does it. It contributed a lot to my happiness, it gave me a false happiness I could only achieve from the high I got. I’m glad I quit although I miss the rush of feeling okay. Anytime I would feel something I would just smoke and quickly put it to the side and forget. Now that I quit my sadness has come back harder than I’ve ever felt it before. I try to be strong about it and keep my head high because I know I could live without a substance keeping me from overcoming my feelings. I know I’m strong enough