Finished chemo in December, BMX w/expanders in January, finished radiation on Monday. I was so excited to not have any appointments and to have a “normal” day with my 2yr old so we went grocery shopping, got coffee, etc. These last 2 days I’ve felt absolutely AWFUL. My entire body hurts and I’m a little concerned that I tore the muscle in my right breast. I’m fully aware that I lost ALL of my muscle during chemo that I spent years achieving, but I truly did not think I’d feel this bad for overdoing it.
The worst part? The extreme mom guilt I have for snapping at my son during lunch when he didn’t do anything wrong, I’m just in pain.
These are the parts no one tells you, life is FAR from normal once chemo is done or radiation is done or surgery is done. I’m struggling to accept the fact that I need to remain patient and I’ll get there one day. But when you’ve felt like absolute hell for 8 months, it’s hard to be patient sometimes.
Oh, and of course, radiation fatigue got me finally.
Sending love & grace to anyone else having a crappy day today, you’re not alone!