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I've been thinking, I have been away from church 7 years and haven't communed since due to health issues I had to move to a place without any orthodox Church, I might have an opportunity to go to church next year, but I have psychosis and back then bishop gave me blessings to commune without confession, can I just receive again being away seven years? Due to the schizofrenia I cannot approach or talk to people normally and back then I had my ma talk to the priests on my behalf, she is not orthodox. Rn i can't be in touch with a priest.

One more thing was past few years I have been on verge of lapsing because there's catholic and oriental churches near me and I miss church and sometimes try to rationalize their doctrine. But lately as my depression and psychosis has been shifting low and high, i have become weepy of everything and tearful and do not feel much of christs comfort soothe in my life but I'm thinking I want to come back.

My main reason is I keep getting tormenting ideas of what I'm missing the thing that Christ offered us to sit on his eternal throne and judge angels and the cosmos, a share of his divinity, that we may too be as he is, Gods in actuality whereas theosis in other churches seem to sound only virtual. I feel i don't want to reject that gift of Christ and give away my birthright like Esau, and that too for the garbage other churches are offering instead. Please keep me in prayer, I'm baptized John evangelist. Thanks

I would like to know a little about - if God is outside time, are all the ideas that come from him already fully manifested? Where would the concept of predestination fit in that? Is time basically a character of human nature and exist because we are finite? After end times, does God also rest eternal or does he still be the cause of further creation? Have any saint talked about that.

Also does suffering exist in God, maybe not causing him but as a potential and real thing? Because why did creation contract it isn't it logically contrary to God then if it's not a thing because he alone is the only existence? Or do we mean it is absence of something than a thing? Isn't it a positive thing since Christ suffered and therefore real?

So i was listening to people who said will is proper to agent so God has one will, not three for each person but Christ then either separately has a miathelite Will and is his own agent? So am i getting this right because that sounds weird. Perhaps i understood wrong. Also why would christ mention the Father's agency separately in telling us about what the Father desires to gift us. Instead of God as whole since the three in agreement. Thanks