u/Effective-Shift-6193

I constantly feel like I need to look “normal” or “attractive” when I am simply in others line of sight. I have very bad social anxiety but desperately want to make friends and be confident in myself. I am an adult but I still feel like a child. Sometimes i have no idea who I am. I struggle with depersonalization/derealization and have alot of guilt about myself. I have alot of (Christian) religious trauma and I think I have a witch wound. What Deity should I work with for self identity, confidence, releasing shame…