Hi, I am 23f. I have diagnosed autism and bpd, and I've done dbt therapy and continue to do so. I have all my coping mechanisms and skills and do great in day to day to life.
But as soon as I start dating and I feel like its going well, I start to overthink every little thing. My current partner is very understanding, but like yesterday he wasn't texting me as frequently and I asked him to call me (I had been drinking)
and instead he started focusing on his video game so I just hung up..and then texted him how I was disappointed because I missed him and he reassured me but I've still been crying all day about how I feel he secretly hates me, and this is so exhausting. Not just for me obviously but him, we were doing so well the first four months then I had some personal family emergencies and now my mental health is trash and I'm scared to ruin the first relationship I've felt seen in.
I'm just looking for any advice on how to handle my strong feelings. Because my current coping mechanisms aren't helping