i feel like my education life is over
i’m currently in adult education.
the best way i can explain adult school is that it’s basically like doing high school again so you can get your diploma and eventually go to college (the choice i'm doing), at least where i’m from.
the problem is that i’ve always been kind of lazy and unmotivated. i’m 18 now and i’ve been in adult education since i was almost 17. it’s been about two years already and next year will be three.
back in high school i never really asked for help. i think a big part of that was because of the language barrier. i’m not from the country i currently live in so i had to learn french (canada, quebec). i’m fluent enough to understand it, but actually speaking it is hard for me because i never really use it out loud. i also have really bad social anxiety.
i tried my best in highschool to ask for help but i just couldn’t do it. my grades were okay in most subjects except french and history mostly because both required a lot of reading in french and i struggled with that.
a reason why i’m like this is because i was bullied badly after moving here. because of that, speaking french became embarrassing for me even though i know the language. my school knew i was struggling with my studies but nothing really changed. at the same time, i know it’s partly my fault too because i never properly asked for help.
now i’m in adult school and my teachers are actually nice but i still feel slow compared to everyone else. i want to graduate already and move on to college asap, but i still struggle with asking for help even at my age and i don’t know if that’s ever going to change.
i also don’t really understand how college works so if anyone went from adult education to college, i’d appreciate hearing what the transition was like.