How do I even start?
Hello! I apologize for any odd formatting, I’m on mobile.
Anyways, I (21f, 320lbs, 5’6) was on the call with my girlfriend earlier and she said she needed to talk to me about something but didn’t want to hurt my feelings. She told me she’s worried about how much I eat out, and that she hates to see me get so upset over my weight, so she wants me to lose weight. The thing is, I’ve been big my whole life. I’ve tried weight loss drugs (they made me very very sick), I’ve tried dieting, I’ve tried counting calories, and all of it either leads to me quitting after a few days or falling into an ED spiral. I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I go and buy all this healthy food, and then the next week I’m back to square one.
To make matters worse, I’m about to start an anti-psychotic that causes weight gain, so my psychiatrist also told me I need to lock in or I’m gonna get to 350.
What do I do? How do I start? Any advice, encouragement, or motivation is greatly appreciated.
Oh also for some context: I have a physical disability that makes standing, walking, or any activity that is strenuous on my ankle very very difficult. If I go for a run or a walk I’m stuck in bed the entire next day. Thank you chronic illness.