I'm never on reddit and I dont like sharing anything about myself. I'm someone who's suffering from stuff like depression and finally found myself an oppurtunity to be happy and go away from my unbearable mother and leave my religious country.
But no matter how hard I try I can't see myself being happy unless I'm a girl. I've talked to my older sister about it. She escaped our religious country and she is living happily with her husband and children. I'm not sure if just leaving the country will solve everything. If I transition I'll get to feel pretty and dress up, but transitioning is a lot of money and might even ruin my life even more if im not 100% sure about who I really am. It's not even going to be my money, Im only 17 and I feel like a burden to everyone around me already. I dont want my siblings to spend their hard earned money just so my life would be slightly better.
right around when the egg was cracking I came out as a Bisexual to my friends and my sister. I dont have many memories about when I was little but my sister told me that I was a bit feminine growing up which I had no idea about. I've always told myself back then that I wish I was born a girl "but not in a trans way"
I want to feel pretty and dress up in feminine clothes. but maybe it could be something else entirely that im not aware off? I'm aware that I might sound delusional but I want to explore who I really am before I make a hasty decision. because of my religious country I havent been much aware of the lgbtq+ community and who I really am. I hate this unbrearable and suffocating place.
sorry about the long yap
I want to hear your opinion about my situation and your experiences about being trans!
p.s: I didnt want to mention where I'm from for personal reasons