In some straight fuckery
I’m having some trouble right now.
I had to Abrubtly switch meds mid April by the 19 or 20th I went into hypo mania. I started obsessing over something really insane in my marriage. Down loaded millions off dating apps . Bought a shit load of new slutty clothes and boots and makeup even a fake kim k butt (omg)
Wanted to get my lips done too.
I keep thinking everyone like strangers wants to sleep with me and I feel unstoppable .
I wanted to disconnect from my family today at Mother’s Day I just got super drunk and kept disappearing to masturbate which is embarssing as fuck.
My husband’s best friend was over last nite and he was supposed to stay over I’m so glad he didn’t because I had intended on getting him to sleep with me. I can’t stop the hypersexual drive and the need to keep contacting strangers . And I keep investigating my husbands abandoned child from 20 years ago that never crossed my mind until this episode hit.
I did start a new med but I’m not up to the therapeutic dose. I just feel like such a piece of shit because I want to be able to control my hyper sexuality/ flirtation Limerance.
It’s so bad rn. And I cannot sleep and i keep thinking this cycle will never end. Tomorrow I see my therapist and my psych .idk maybe I need med change …