Working moms of older kids, when does it get easier or does it?
I'm 8 months postpartum. 2 months into my job. I'm finding it so difficult to even prioritise my work or feel any motivation.
There's already layoffs (I'm in tech) looming over my head. Every quarter 1000s are getting laid off in my organisation. On top of it all I have to learn so many new things with AI coming up and I'm already finding it difficult to recall what I had been doing before. I can't even remember how I used to do very simple mundane tasks.
My head is always thinking about what to feed baby today, what food item to try new, what combination today, baby is sick , baby is happy and so on.
I try to catch up on work on Saturday and Sunday (because I'm really not finishing things not because its hard, earlier i coule have done it so fast, but I'm not able to focus at all) and when baby cries and wants to be with me, I'm like work doesn't matter right now, I'll take the baby.
Does it get better? Am I losing my ambition and motivation? I need this job/some job financially. So not working is not an option. (Everyday I dream of winning some lottery and retiring early) But this is soooo difficult. I don't know if I'm the only one who feels like this.
In my defense, my days are hectic. My baby is stuck to me from 7pm to 9am (breastfeeding and multiple waking at night). 9am nanny comes, and I work from home, but ours is a small 2bhk. So its not possible to avoid baby whole day. And since its just me, nanny and baby, I pop up whenever needed like baby getting cranky, or nanny needing a bathroom/water break etc. I switch context between work sooo much. And on top of it all I end up looking at my phone for baby food recipes etc and lose track of time as well. All day everyday I'm thinking how to improve my baby's life.