I have the guilty/paranoid conscious of a serial killer (if they even had the ability to feel that)
I can’t tell if it’s just me or my 300mg Wellbutrin causing me to be paranoid and extremely anxious about things that shouldn’t make most people thattt anxious. It’s like stuff I’ve done wrong that I’m scared I’ll be exposed for but the level of threatened/scared I feel doesn’t feel proportionate. Sometimes I feel like it’s also presenting as the subcategory of OCD where you feel like you have to confess every single little thing. According to others I’ve always been paranoid/cautious of things that others wouldn’t be but I always see that as just being smart/meticulous and that’s why I don’t get caught doing stuff other people get caught doing. I feel like my sense of reality is distorted and I can’t tell how much of a threat something really is and I’ve almost done some stupid shit trying to fix it. What if it’s not the wellbutrin and it’s just everything catching up to me in my head after time and maturing? What if it goes away after I get off of the Wellbutrin but the threat is still just as real and I should address it before time compounds the problem but I don’t because I‘ll feel just as delusional confident it’ll never become an issue (like everyone thinks before something becomes an issue). I hear how insane I sound but I don’t know, there has to be some truth to my thinking right?