I'm so done with vicarious trauma
Please do not read this if you are sensitive
I'm genuinely so tired of feeling overworked.
I really enjoy the work, but for the last 4 years the patient volume is absolutely insane (been in the job for 6, post covid they changed initial evaluations to half an hour)
It's 9am and I want to go home because this lady told me about how her son completed suicide, and how she had to do something with the car he was in, and saw his brains everywhere, and can't eat meat sauce anymore.
I fucking love meat sauce. I had sausage and sauce this morning. I almost threw up.
But I need to be together and professional and keep a job so here I am guiding this woman who is literally trembling through reducing trauma re-experiencing with evidenced based mindfulness.
I'm literally 40 notes behind. My hands hurt. I dont have xarpal tunnel they are literally just overused. I called out yesterday. I'm on vacation for a week in 2 weeks but I can almost guarantee I'm going to piss my wife off and feel miserable the whole time.
I cannot describe how little I even want to stop by my mother's for 5 minutes this weekend or chill with the 1 friend I have.
This occupation is absurd.