u/Dyslexic_Gay

I might be feeling extremely biased towards hate right now cos I’m currently on the toilet absolutely fighting for my life😭but this feels like torture. I don’t really have any thoughts anxiety wise, but my body is anxious and don’t I know it. It’s currently 3:50 am for me and I’ve been on the toilet for at least an hour. I woke up with stomach cramps and I’ve been on the toilet ever since. I keep going between bloating and diarrhoea and I’m so sick of it. I’ve got an appointment in the morning but I’ve had to reschedule it because there’s no way that I can go like this. Usually I fast before appointments because I know that my IBS is likely to make an appearance but I just wasn’t thinking apparently. Currently the only saving grace I have is my air freshener, when I spray it on myself it helps the nausea. So yea, super fun, I fucking love my life so much, 10/10 don’t recommend (and I’d get my meds but I was in such a rush to get to the toilet that I completely forgot to get them🥲)

Edit: this might be too tmi but the SMELL, I actually can’t cope, it smells so bad I feel like that might kill me before shitting out everything will😭

Edit 2: I’ve just thought, I’m doing a lot of thinking right now, does anyone else do work on the toilet? I’m a uni student and I’ve done like coursework and revision on the toilet and I’ve never actually told anyone but I’m wondering if that’s a common thing or if I’m the strange one. Sorry in advance, there might be a lot of edits, I’m just insanely bored and on the toilet

Edit 3: so I think my toilet is now blocked🥲but the worst of it is possibly now over so I can start trying to get off the toilet and get my meds (hopefully)