THE ONLY REASON OF ME WRITING THIS IS THAT I HOPE NO ONE DOES WHAT I DID ANd STUDY SINCERELY.
So this is my third drop year i never crossed 300 in neet just because of me not studying (didnt know what neet is in 12th ) took first drop ghar se karne ke liye as we all know ghar se ghanta kuch hota hai , took second with friends from school ,took another drop 3rd) joined aakash again my irresponsible ass didn’t study for whole year its 28april today i have nothing prepared in physics i get constant 10-20 marks i am trying to compelete modern physics and ioc - i dont know any physical chem (i know i should kms for wasting this much time and still not learning from my past mistakes ) gave a test today attempted 500 gonna get 400 i think idk.
SO HERE COMES MAIN PART OF THIS RANT ,
MY MOTHER IS A SINGLE MOTHER WHO HAS DEALT WITH HONESTLY TOO MUCH JUST TO GET ME A GOOD LIFE i have everything a person needs latest expensive tech cars anything i want (were not that rich to afford a priv ) , i was sitting rn to study semiconductors and i suddenly got anxious after seeing more than 7 chapters remaining (ioc+physics modern ) i havent done any physics i am dependent only on modern. I burst out crying first time infront of my mother (in my 21 years of life i never let myself break infront of her she already has too much on her plate) .
THE THING WHICH PEOPLE DONT GET HAVING NICE PARENTS IS VERY GOOD ONLY WHEN YOU ARE NICE TOO
poor soul(mom) said if you’re in this state mat de exam neet mat de cuet deke bsc karlena but aise hatash nahi hote even she know for bio people there is nothing much to do to earn still she said mai kuch buisness bana ke dungi (shes 53) i dont want her to do it for me its better if i died ,
Reddit is only place where i wont be judged cause students know that messups happen ,
Just saying this one thing please do not break infront of your parent ecspescially if you don’t have a dad .
I don’t know what to expect from this posts replys but i dont want to kms i just want to live not for me but for my mom ,
Tears are still not stoppingg and i really hope that this burden and guilt does not consume me if it does and you end up seeing news from raipur about neet related .
Remember this as my last post and never take time for granted