Recently I experienced a massive change in how I think about my life. I won’t go on a long tangent about the exact details of it, but the gist of it is that I realized that every choice I have made in my life doesn’t seem to have been from my own volition. Every choice I have made, (where to go to college, what for, why) has been made based on what other people have told me I’m good at.
Right now I’m attending college for Film and Creative Writing. I just finished my first year of undergrad and I suddenly realized: “Hey, do I even want to do film?” I only chose to go to college for film and writing because a bunch of people have told me that I’m good at it. I thought that since I was good at it, I must like it, and that’s clearly what I want to go to college for. But the reality is that I haven’t really given any thought about what I want to do with my life ever. I can’t even tell if I like writing or shooting films.
I took a good while thinking about things that I enjoy and how they relate to college in a sense of degrees or career pathways. As a kid there was always the youtube dream but I can’t really go to college for that. Recently I have really enjoyed topics on space travel and our universe and several times I considered gearing my college path towards getting a degree in that field. (Something like Astronomy or Astrophysics is insanely interesting to me)
But honestly the truth is that I never really gave my future much of a thought. I did good in high school, I wrote a great essay to get into college, my tuition is nearly a full ride just based on that. I only chose my current college to go to because my career advisor in high school suggested I tour it, and it seemed like a decent choice.
So I guess my biggest concern and the stuff I’m looking for advice for is whether it’s too late for me to try and pursue a career in something else. Do I take the risk and try to gear my college career path towards Astronomy even though I’m not 100% sure that’s even what I want to do? Or should I stick with Film, which I feel mediocre about, and hope for the best? And should I look for a college more suited towards what I want rather than the one which gave me the most financial aid?
Any advice would be really appreciated and I apologize for the long post.