Pre-fellowship fatigue...
Hoping for expectations management for my tired ass knowing i've got a very tough year ahead...
Grinded through IM residency. Grateful to match into dream competitive fellowship in an awesome city with great cofellows, PD, and faculty - first year is brutal and i'm facing 4 years of fellowship training while starting off burnt to a crisp...
I wrapped up ICU/inpatient obligations in January. Handed off chief duties recently. Sprinkled in a little moonlighting but not too much. I was hoping being out of the hospital for a few months would help recharge but i'm still tired AF and barely dragging my ass through ABIM prep.
Historically...when working in my chosen sub-specialty i feel energized and all the annoying shit about medical training falls away because i truly enjoy it.
Does everyone start fellowship burnt TF out and low key a little nervous about adding on years of training?