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And then it hit me — so hard

A river of pain, all at once,

Trickling down my cheek,

Suppressed for what felt like eons,

While I kept dodging myself

Behind a mask of false normality.

And I lost you, my darling,

For I ain't worthy of you —

To hold you in these savage arms.

I kept dodging myself

Behind a veil of fated farce.

It hit me so hard —

Right in my throbbing heart,

The heart that will cry for you

For all eternity, one can count.