so im a diagnosed schizophrenic (about 2 years ago I was diagnosed but I had hallucination type events that I remember starting around 10 years old) that gets hallucinations sometimes and i have a fear of spiders but im sitting at my computer googling questions about spiders like how they reproduce and how different spiders venom affects its targets and such, and during it i feel stuff crawling on my skin and got scared of my microphone cause i saw it from the corner of my eye and jumped when i noticed it ( a tiny section of it kinda just appeared to me) and I see little specs moving on my walls for less than a second but i persevere, i have to pee but I hold off on it for like 10 minutes still googling different stuff abt spiders. I get up to go pee, use the toilet and spend some time looking in the mirror (mainly to look at my cuts i accidentally gave myself shaving) and I see out of the tippy top of my eye TWO LONG ASS SPIDER LEGS POP OUT FROM BEHIND THE LIGHT and I jump and I step back and this big ass fucking spider crawls around the sconce shade. I swear theres a conspiracy theory happening to me rn like deadass thats too big of a coincidence in my head that it just makes more sense to believe the FBI is using spiders to conduct recon on people n shit (In like a half hearted belief that I know is unfounded and unlikely but yknow something people do genuinely believe) LMAOOOO /srs monkey covering eyes emoji thanks /ref
for ref part of my big schizo break like 2 years ago involved me believing I was being gangstalked by the criminals in my area and the govt while hallucinating invisible imaginary spiders controlled by both parties (and some natural/domesticated) used to incite fear and stuff to cause suicide (usually the natural/domesticated just wanted to live peacefully in the areas they reside and were just territorial wanting to keep people away from where they resided) some could talk and some just have a threatening aura + being able to kill you from range but not all the spiders i hallucinated were bad some were helpful !!