Let my LO get to me again
I know this will make me sound stupid. But my LO and I have been no contact since February, when I made the decision to end things because I wanted a relationship and he didn’t, which was very hard for me. I had also done a lot of the initiating and admittedly “chased” him most the time, but he’d always agree and go along with it.
Well now, he’s been randomly reaching out on social media again. He’ll DM me funny videos and use that as an ice breaker to start a conversation and we’ve been messaging more and more
Yesterday we messaged all throughout the day which is the most we’ve talked since then. Then randomly he asked “you have anything else going on tonight?” and I got excited thinking he was going to ask to see me, because I’ve missed him alot.
In the past he never asked that unless he wanted to hang out, but he would always just drop hints like that and then I would eagerly be the one to suggest hanging out
This time, I just lightheartedly answered that I don’t have anything else to do besides hang out with my dog, waiting for him to then ask to hang out. But then he just “liked” the message and didn’t continue the conversation even though we’d been talking all day.
I got upset and spiraled, feeling like I had messed up and ruined my chance to see him again because I didn’t respond the way he wanted me to. Realistically I know this person is shit if they purposely breadcrumb me and then ignore me when I don’t beg, but I couldn’t help but internalize it and wish I had said something different.
Then I just went to bed early to stop myself from messaging him again and asking why he did that
I know the answer is to block him, I’m just not ready yet. I know I fucked up by talking to him again. I’m also frustrated at why he would start reaching out again, why even bother messaging me all day if you’re not even willing to just ask “hey want to hang out” ??