My darkest LEGIT desire
I am a 34 female Cop who is also a USMC Veteran in the southwest Florida area who finds herself constantly watching porn but the violent kind.
I have an incredibly deep desire to be raped. I know that sounds bad or whatever because I have personally investigated these assholes and put them away but I can’t help it. I am constantly fantasizing about being approached, fighting, loosing, and forcibly being owned by someone (s). Honestly I wouldn’t even mind if it was more than one because then the control would be even stronger.
I was sexually assaulted when I was in the Marines but penetration never happened because I was able to fight him off.
I wish there could be a someone(s) that would find me and overpower me, control me and fuck me into the ground. Let me also put in there that I am nothing special at all. I am not buff or take boxing or fighting classes. I am your average person. I am 506 and weigh like 145-150.
I have to be in control of everything AT ALL TIMES. I even fantasize about someone finding me at work and doing the same. Sometimes I fantasize more about that because my control factor is in hyper drive. I am so tired of being in control.