Doctors and physical therapists just can't agree about whether I have hypermobility or not. I finally got a specialized doctor who took her sweet time, checking many movements and directions in many joints, and testing skin, asking many questions, etc.. who said hey, whatever those 8 people before me couldn't make their minds up about, I say yes you definitely struggle with hypermobility, and let's treat it with that in mind.
But she doesn't actually treat people, just advised me to be treated by a physical therapist who knows about hypermobility, because yes, hypermobility. This physical therapist who I am to work with did a 2 minute version of checking the scale, and by her findings I only score a 1.
I have looked up a lot about hypermobility in the last years of physical therapists disagreeing about whether or not I deal with this, and, finally so so much of what I struggle with seems explained. And now I want to get treatment and help with training and here I am with someone who seems to not take the time, and might give me exercises that - yet again - make my symptoms worse. Fucking fuck. Might not even go like that, she might look into it some more or keep what all the other people said in mind, and treat me with hypermobility in mind after all, I just.. the not knowing and being treated in ways that don't help at all, and all the unclarity and uncertainty, fuck! You know?? I want to be done with all that and have help with training to stabilize, and for all my efforts to clearly go towards actually feeling better!