An old friend i reconnected with over the year does adult content, after months of thirsting after her i messed up.
I knew this woman from HS and college, i was bored and started to message her as i still had her added on IG. After a few months of chat here and there i had discovered more about her life and what she does. I work in tech its not hard to put 2 and 2 together to figure things out but i never brought it up nor even made it about that. Though i had snooped and just saw the things she was doing and who i used to know it was night and day. Even when chatting her persona shifts 100% during her content.
I continued talking to her daily becoming more flirty until i eventually manned up and asked her out. I had not seen her in person in ages but when she arrived we just met up at a bar the persona and style she displays i learned is not her day to day life. I am a reserved person but she is even far more reserved and soft-spoken than i am.
The date went well shes been blowing up my phone non-stop. I genuinely care about her and i really don't mind her profession. My issue stems that my inital attraction to her was that online persona i found. I feel wrong for that feeling and almost like im with her now due to a lie. I feel if i bring it up the predation of everything will have her thinking I'm a creep as i don't want to lose her but i feel guilt.