u/Dry_Expression_3912

I feel like such a piece of crap for how resentful I am of everyone in my life who is pregnant or had a baby recently. I can’t put into words how jealous I am. And I am very self aware and know it’s horrible. I can’t believe I’m this far into my journey with no positive results. It’s taken so much joy from me, taken my skinny body from me, and just my hopes of being a mom. I find women who are pregnant or have a baby SO annoying when they try to comfort me. I can’t explain it. I don’t want to be around them at all. I feel embarrassed because they will then just say I’m jealous and I AM BUT DONT WANT TO BE BUT CANT HELP IT.
Ugh.

Editing this to ask for any kind of reassurance here so i don’t feel crazy and MEAN LOL