Friend told me he was sick of how sick I am
As the title says a friend recently told me he was sick of how sick I am.
Like, I get it. It sucks and I know that. It's not just rough on us, it impacts our loved ones, friends and family. A lot of plans get cancelled. We're lucky if we see each more than a few times a year. Half the time I can't even manage a decent conversation by text. It's frustrating for him and I really do understand where he was coming from. He probably didn't even mean it the way I took it.
But it hurt, you know? I didn't ask for this. I don't want to be this way. I don't want to be exhausted and in pain and have to plan my life around it like a frigging military operation. It's cost me friends and time with my family. I can't explain it to my nieces so they don't understand why I can't play with them the way they want. Going on holiday is awful because sometimes my family want to do stuff and I can't. I'm in a wheelchair and my parents are in their 70s. They're pushing me at a time when it should be the other way round. I feel like such a burden on those I love and I know I'm lucky that my friend has stuck around because a lot don't.
I know I'm probably being way too sensitive about it. I'm sick of it too. But it's just really stuck in my brain.