u/Dry-Philosopher967

I’ve been doing spravato since December 2025. Started with the standard twice weekly then went to once a week and have been on once a week ever since January 2026. The improvements have been up and down. Since starting Spravato I’ve had these weird BPD rage depressive episodes I had never had before. Have had several this year, ruined several relationships with family/friends, and was hospitalized once and currently in an IOP. It’s weird because from mid January-March I felt good, depression had lifted, was able to think more clearly and react differently than I’m used to. But then a trigger happens in April, I have one of those “episodes” and I’ve been on the depressive side ever since. It’s been weeks of all my depression symptoms coming back full force. I go weekly to Spravato and I’m on 42mg Caplyta, 100 mg Seroquel at night, and 1mg klonopin as needed. The time commitment of Spravato, in addition to still being so depressed made me decide to take a break from treatments. Of course the dr didn’t think it was a good idea and hopefully I don’t get worse, but they agreed to pause for one month. I don’t normally feel much in my sessions anymore, and honestly have been struggling with boredom during my sessions after trying different activities. I hope I don’t get worse with the depression next week after not going to my appointment. Has anyone else taken breaks from Spravato and found positive or negative reactions to it?