u/Dry-Hair-7022

I am still in shock
You're gone like a puff of smoke
Now of course I am left with a thousand questions
I am left with no closure
I am scared to ever trust again
I am now so guarded
I don't want to go thru the dance again
The dance of getting to know someone
How can I ever trust any of it will be real again
That the person won't one day just disappear without a word
The thought of going thru all the steps that one goes thru to really know someone
To just then be left with no explanation, no words, just emptiness
And the worst part, really,
Is there are so many places I would frequent when walking, etc. right here where I reside
while talking with you on the phone 
That now I can't bring myself to go to those places
I feel like I have no where that I can go that won't remind me of you, of us
My world is forever dampened with memories, desires unfulfilled, promises broken