u/Dry-Gap-6003

Me and my bf both 20, are long distance dating for almost a year and we see each other like once a month or less, I'm coming here because I'm too ashamed to ask anyone close. We were both raised Christain and struggled with lust and problems before but we both turned away from it before we met. Of course we were both struggling but the fruits have been showing. We both know what's right and we study almost every day, and pray, that helps a lot. But every once in awhile we kinda push a boundary, maybe a little touching or showing too much. Haven't kissed yet or had sex but we have committed adultery in our minds and we feel terrible for it, I'm worried about marriage and why I don't have enough self control. I would like to get free from this and do the right thing and be married, I think he would too, but he is very worried bout the future being just right, he wants a good house for a good price, and renting is basically a waste of money. Also he is the youngest of quite a few siblings and they seem to have done everything right, tho they did get married much later than us. I am less worried about having the right house or job, I wanna do what is right by God, I'm not trying to run from sin, I want to run to something that is better. But we definitely are struggling to keep boundaries and I don't know if we should break up or fight through it. Advice please, thank you.