I couldn't sleep last night at all. I binged a show and went to bed ruminating involuntarily on the plot of the show. So my brain couldn't shut the hell up. Slept none. Zero hours, zero minutes, zero seconds.
I said fuck it, I'll be awake the whole day to fix my sleep!
At 10pm I was getting dreams while watching a YouTube video . So i decided to put the phone away and close my eyes, but i started sweating excessively and an extreme feeling of unease invaded me. So i got up more alert than ever now. I think I am really close to having a panic attack and a full blown psychosis. I want to call someone but i have no one. Fuck! So i write this shit. I know you folks often have it much worse than this, i just wanted to vent here. Fuck fuck. Ill guess i will do whatever