Just a vent from a tired man
there may be some identifying information in this post so if you read this, and you know who I am just don’t fucking say anything.
My father died of Alzheimer’s. That was 10 years ago.
My parents never made a ton of money, but they saved every penny. Every single penny. My dad was two years into his retirement when this happened. The state took everything. All their retirement, all their savings, even their pension.
Between his rapid decline and death and the systematic ass fucking of their financials, it broke me. A developed a drinking problem that got very severe. My wife somehow stuck with me and got me into an actual treatment facility that worked. I am now coming up on 10 years sober.
My mom has dementia. She’s had it for about five years now. She’s in a good place now, but the last five years have been a real slog dealing with insurance and good fits.
My brother, at the age of 55 developed Lewy body syndrome. This time last year we were all hanging out together, now he does not know who I am.
my other brother developed a very severe infection and almost died just weeks ago.
For about three weeks, it looked like I was the last one. he’s out of the hospital, but not out of the woods.
I have requested an appointment with a neurologist to do genetic testing. My kids are late teens early 20s. There’s a chance they will give me a CT scan and find out dementia is already on the way for me.
Do I have two years left? Five?
It’s been a rough year and I just needed to put this in writing. Because I’m the last man standing.
Thank you for reading this.
I marked this NSFW because I refer to the process of the American Healthcare System as an “ass fucking”