Hello, hope everyone's having an okay day, just want to talk about some things that's been on my mind lately, so pretty much a two-in-one post for convenience. For as long as I can remember, I always felt disconnected from other people, mainly because of Autism and my interests/hobbies, resulting in me being anxious and self-conscious about myself, feeling the need to "fit in" and "conform" if it meant not having to worry about potential judgement and/or rejection, and as a Christian, this has also resulted in me feeling "out of place" at church as well.
To clarify on my interests, I categorize them in 2, my Alternative interests (Scene/Emo music and fashion, Heavy Metal, Hardcore, Alt Rock) and my Nerdy interests (anime/manga, video games, mythology), another note to add is that I don't idolize these interests, nor do I listen/play any satanic games or bands
And to clarify on my Autism, I have sensory issues, loud places tend to overwhelm me, and the church me and my family goes to can get pretty overwhelming at times, I have headphones, but I don't really wear them at church out of respect, also the same reason why I don't walk out for a breather.
Any advice for either topic is appreciated, sorry for any confusion, I'm kinda bad at choosing my words.