I have grown up in the church my entire life. Re-gave my life to Christ at 18 but have always been battling depression.
I try my hardest to not be selfish but I feel so...tired, defeated, and mentally drained. Living in the US and seeing everything unfolding, seeing so many people dying over greed, narcissism, and putting zero value in other people's lives while many others (some claiming to be of the faith) letting it happen is just hirinhurting my soul. It doesn't matter that my life is stable when my heart is sinking for these people.
I'm about 6.5 months away from bringing a beautiful mixed race child into this planet but being a Christian with everything happening and my wife and soon-to-be child depending on me is draining me hard. It's even worse when I have a close family member coming up with excuses for all of this happening.
I need prayers for motivation, strength, and of course, wisdom to know how to respond to all of this for myself (sanity) and for my family. Peace beyond understanding would be so good right now...